It’s a start

So, I’ve been meaning to start a blog for a while now. I tried it before on myspace but just couldn’t get the feel for it there…I thought I would give this a try. I don’t really know how to ‘blog’. Is there a wrong way? I mean – it’s whatever I want it to be – whatever is in my head at the movement so I guess it can’t really be wrong – right? I guess my big worry is that even though I really want to write about my thoughts…what if I don’t really have any worth while? What if, as I write I find out things about myself – like that I’m boring, dull…or maybe I’m really mean and judgemental - or maybe I’m wonderfully witty and cleaver?  Yeah – let’s go with that last one

SO! Like I said, I’ve been meaning to do this for a while and today as I was telling my coworker about one of many bizarro dreams I had she said ‘do you have a blog where you can write all of this down?’. And I said ‘no, but I want to’. What better way to start then with a dream sequence…

As a preface let me begin my saying a little bit about the nature of my dreams. I dream every night and I remember my dreams every morning – sometimes only for a few moments as I am waking up but usually they stay with me. More importantly so (to me at least) is the feeling of my dreams. I almost always know I’m dreaming but what is always real to me is how whatever it is that is happening in my dream is making me feel. These feelings are hard to explain but most of the time they too stay with me. Sometimes I’m happy about this – sometimes not so much.

With that said…

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it starts at my dad’s house. my family is there along with the cast of Lost. for this dream it seems that i will be playing the role of kate. we are filming the ‘kitchen’ scene. this particular scene consists of me (aka kate) making out with jack. all is going well until queen latifah walks in. we all go outside and queen latifah walks away. even though we are at my dad’s house – and now outside on my dad’s block – we are still ‘lost’ – even though it’s fake and we are actors – we are still lost somewhere and to make the most of it we are filming it all for the world to see. so now i’m outside and i see john locke down the block with a bunch of kids. they are digging holes next to the trees planted in the sidewalk. i start to help them and locke tells me what to look for and what to dig up. as we move down the street i see sawyer standing at the corner looking out over this concrete wall i didn’t notice before. on the other side of the wall is a cliff and the ocean – now i get it – we must be lost on a small island which is the exact replica of my dad’s neighborhood – of course! so, i go up to sawyer and he’s upset about something so to make him feel better we start making out….and along comes queen latifah again. she’s all telling sawyer how i was just making out with jack in the kitchen and sawyer gets all mad and walks away. i’m so pissed  – i walk up to queen latifah i smack her – like full hand smack right across her face. i guess this was in the scrip we were all following and queen latifah was suppose to do the whole move her head in time with my hand thing so that i didn’t actually hit her but she forgot. so, i smack her and she gives me this death look and i scream ‘oh no! i just smacked queen latifah!’ – and then i woke up

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